SCHOOL IS STARTING IN T-minus 3 days (I won't count Thursday because that is the day it starts and if you look at the time stamp it is already Monday)
ALL 5 of my children will be IN SCHOOL!! I am so happy for them all! Every year one or more of them has felt left out, left behind, or just left...yeah I came back and got them...(just kidding), but this year, no more....they are all (including myself) in school!
EVERYONE ASKS ME...."are you sad?"
Am I weird when I say NO!?
No I am not a bad parent I am a happy parent. I waited for 5.5 years (because half my pregnancy with #5 was pretty much thinking this day would NEVER arrive...) for this day.
Example: I waited 15 years for my son to march in the band...and he is, and I am there like a good band mom not crying my eyes out, or watching him interact with other students like one of these insane mominista hover parents, no. I am there LIVING OUT A DREAM, I am seeing the moment that he steps foot on to the field with his shiny Dinkles (shoes people) and his heavy wool uniform cap and cape and all as a moment I thought of when I stepped on to a field for the first time, instrument in hand...it's amazing! I didn't CRY when I saw him march, I pushed him further, press on, do more, instruct others, lead by example I said to him. I am marking time with him, with me, with God, showing my son that YES you CAN do it, and eventhough my story started off kinda crummy, look, look, look, LOOK where God put us today!?!
I am PROUD to be the mother of 5 school aged children. In a few years my oldest will go to college and I will be proud then. I know we are not supposed to be prideful, but I think God gave us emotion so that we can enjoy the moments where our child hits a moment of success.
Life is a lot like Chutes and Ladders that game from a million years ago, when you get up that ladder and you are almost to the top, you are fully aware there are some steep chutes, but by golly you KNOW that there are only a few ladders left, always look up!!
So to you out there who think I will be CRYING on Thursday morning come 8:30am...THINK AGAIN, I am going to be happy, happy that all my children are enjoying school, friends, and finding their path to where God wants them in their lives. Because I know I am RIGHT where God wants me....at home, breathing in silence, enjoying the moments that have passed, and looking forward to each new one we GET to make with our kids, our family, our walk with God.
** P.s. I am still praying that God will see me with a job soon, but until then I am volunteering and giving my time that I have been gifted with back to the community **
JR
I think you have a point! Our job as parents is not to keep our children down or hold them back in any way. Our job is to guide them along life's path until they can guide themselves. We should be happy when they take those big steps in to the world... happy that we have done a good enough job to get them there! You enjoy this time when all your kids are in school. You are an amazing mom, and you deserve a bit of a break. :)
ReplyDelete*hugs* I appreciate that Grumpy!
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