Yesterday was a baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaddddddddddd day for my consumption of the worlds food stuffs. Yeah I said it, food stuffs, the 1952 word that you will occasionally hear outside a board room or governmental meeting to make you feel small and un-edumacated.
I started the day TICKED OFF, last week of school....NO ONE got on the bus.....AGAIN. So off I went to 3 diffrent schools and paid bills along the way just to be as efficient as possible. Then I grabbed a DELUXE big breakfast.....by myself, and ATE it by my self. THEN I got a hair cut because my hair looks like total looserville....so I take my mom to the doctor, I run every imaginable errand EXCEPT grocery shopping, I consume a 46oz coke (well it was 44 but then I drank some waiting in the line for a straw and lid so I had to fill-er' up...got a few extra ounces I bet) then a set of cinnamon preoverafterbeforeprocessed slick tasting icing cinnamon buns on a flappy corrugated paper backing...food should not have backings....THEN I waited a few hours to eat again because I was hot and I was tired (the AC on my vehicle has gone out and my windows don't roll down in the front so it is REALLY freakin hot!!
So the husband and I decide to scrub the kids, do the laundry, the dishes, and have the kids clean up the house, and put them to bed, and go out for dinner (snark not....yes, we have a kid old enough to baby sit....he's for hire too!) So we go to Applebees, at 10pm....I consume (no really) 2 sweet teas, 1 half (or more) of a spinach cheese dip with chips and salt, an ENTIRE bacon cheese burger and all but 2 onion rings...no desert. Please I have restraint.
Then we went to Walmart (burn those calories right....11:20pm...ha) I picked up blue colored oreos, snapple (come on it's the best stuff on earth), and assorted meats for the weeks' dinner fixens. By midnight we spent 68$ on everything you can imagine we needed from cereal to milk, ginger for mom, treats for the dog, and the healthiest thing in our cart was skinless boneless chicken breast and bannanas. I ate a bananna this morning. . . HALF, my son ate the other half.
So I feel like I ate a brick. I don't even LIKE the way I feel I don't LIKE the way I look, my new hair cut makes me look fatter (she cut it too short) and like a boy even when styled, so I feel really blah today and super unsexy and super unhappy and I want to change. I do. I want to eat better, I want to shop better, I want to be thinner...no...I want to be healthier. I don't want Jillian Michaels in my face, I don't want to act like Kiersty (sp) Alley, I don't want to be ultra thin like on the Jenny Craig commercials, I just want to feel NORMAL in my OWN SKIN....
Alas I feel alone, like if I do I am the only one here doing it and I don't want to be alone. I want to struggle together...so today I won't eat at all...probably...except a sandwich....my fav, low fat peanut butter with banannas, honey, and raisins on whole wheat bread....no idea if it is any good for you but there are two fruits and whole wheat in it so, it's better than marshmallow fruit loops....isn't it? Isn't it!?
JR
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